Things remembered not forgotten.

After a week of a series of unfortunate events that resulted in missing keys, wallets, washing my sons paycheck and other forgetful things.  Despite all of the forgetful, crazed things I did all week, I remembered a few things too.  Tonight when I was most frustrated my girlfriend said to me "Don't do the chores, just go take a bath."  I am paraphrasing but that was truly at the heart of the message.  So I turned on some hot water and jumped in. 

Its amazing how clear things become with a little hot water and silence.  The first thing I remembered was perhaps the most important.  I remembered today while making the bed, I knocked my sons cross off the wall and I broke it. The second I did I knew I would have to fix it.  The truth is I have more than a cross on the wall to fix.  My faith in God has never wavered.  Not for one minute, not for one second but too often I go through my day in task mode not thinking just doing.  While my faith is still as strong as ever, I haven't allowed it to enrich me and make me strong.  That is the cross I need to fix.  Finding a few moments everyday to acknowledge and be thankful for the love and faith I have been given is the first step to fixing my broken relationship with the cross and it is just the kind of healing I need.

The second thing I remembered is that I spent the day getting organized so that I could relax.  I shoulda just relaxed...Brilliant.  Why didn't I think of that.  Again task, task, task...while there is a lot to be said for taking sometime to get this well oiled machine back on track there is a even more to be said for getting me on track.  The hot bath was the first step to get me there.

The other thing I remembered is how much I love my blog.  My girlfriend started blogging about some of her experiences and it prompted me to look back on my blog.  I am so glad I spent a few moments here and there to log my thoughts over the years.  Here in this blog are some pretty amazing moments and it is like visiting the past reading over them.  The words are me and this is a connection to me.  I like it.  Facebook has taken over because its quick and easy and I love love love pictures.  It is so easy to connect with friends and family.  But this blog is for me and its a way to connect to those moments that go by so fast and not just get a snapshot but remember exactly how I felt in that moment and how it has gotten me to the place I am now.  Which despite the missing keys, lost wallet, washed paychecks, broken crosses, is right where I need to be.  So here's to hoping I remember not to forget my faith, baths, relaxing, or writing my blog again. 

(I have in this moment chosen to forget that run-on sentences and bad grammar are lame and instead am chosing to just leave the words on the page, without proof reading, exactly as they lie and go RELAX!.....don't tell any of my smart friends)